So much shit in my life needs to be figured out. But until then i'm going to focus everything on my future because I literally have no idea where it's headed. I need to just focus on it, figure out where i'm going and get there. Determination will be the key and if people want to come along for the ride then that's fine. But I can't have people messing up my focus. My emotions get in the way of too much. I need to be a stronger person and just quit being so emotional. I'm 20 years old now, i'm a woman, now I need to step up and act like one. I'm sick of the immature shit and everything messing up my days/nights. We'll see where everything goes, hopefully in a positive direction. I hate waiting for something that you know won't come back, or waiting for something that you know you'll never have again. I'm preparing for disappointment but  I can't let this bring me down again. I need to step up, grow up and have more than one priority in my life. I made one thing my biggest priority and didn't think about what would happen in the long run. Like when that priority is no longer there I have nothing else, because I never focused on or cared for anything else, so at the end of the day there's nothing/no one there. word of advice: don't lose contact with friends or stop caring about anything in your life just to focus on ONE thing/person, i'm not saying it's bad to give one thing all your attention, but when that thing is gone and you have nothing or no one left, that's when shit really starts to suck.