I hate when you try to fix things and it doesn't work so then you're just lost and confused and everyones true feelings come out and you find yourself crying every single night with ease. I hate feeling like someone has control over your every emotion but I guess that's what love does to you. I've been trying so hard, and I thought I had been proving myself a lot but I found out I haven't, so where do you go from here? I literally don't know, I think i'll just sit back and wait for whatever to happen. Everything happens for a reason but you influence that reason and i've tried my best to influence my future but I guess God or whoever has different intentions for me. things always fade into nothing, I don't expect anything good to come from this, I can HOPE but I don't expect. If I could sleep through all of this and wake up when it's over I would. but I just need to be strong throughout it all.