i thought this was cute :)

This is what my boyfriend wrote me for valentines day this year :) 

"time has no beginning or end, but a persons life does. what we do in our  lifetime determines the outcome of our life after death. hold onto memories of happiness, hope, compassion for these are the emotions that allow you to cope with the obvious negativity in the world we both see everyday. happy valentines day baby, I wish I was there with you. So i could look into your eyes and tell you how much I love you. Hold you in my arms and promise you everythings gonna be alright. but baby everything is gonna be alright even though im not there, you have my heart. You are the girl of my dreams. Happy valentines day baby, im taking time out of the day to let you know how much i love you and cherish your heart. This is for the times we go through our downs and we don't express enough how much we love eachother. and for the ups when we express how much we love eachother, but still dont understand how real what we have is. happy valentines day baby, this is an apology for all the horrible mistakes i have in our relationsthip and the mistakes i am going to make in the future. no one is perfect, bu my personal perspective of perfection is you. and thats all that should matter. Happy valentines day baby, thankyou for everything you do for me. this is me expressing my appreciation now so that when we do have our arguments. you will know that i do not take anything you do for me for granted. dont ever think that i dont still get those goosebumps everytime i hear your voice. I cant remember the first time you told me you loved me, or the 2nd or the 3rd but that doesnt matter. all that matters is that i remember the last time you do, cause that's all i need to leave this earth happy. knowing that i showed someone true love. and they match that love with just as much in return. thankyou for giving me a chance. dont ever think i dont want you, cause even if we don't work, ill never forget you. and will hold onto the memories we have of one another for the rest of my life. happy valentines baby.

Mindy Smith - One Moment More

Bun B & Lupe Fiasco Debate a Schoolteacher - Are Rappers Role Models?

I heard that you're settled down,
That you found a girl and you're married now,
I heard that your dreams came true,
Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you,
Old friend, why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light,

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it,
I had hoped you'd see my face,
And that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over,

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you, too,
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,
Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead, yeah,

You know how the time flies,
Only yesterday was the time of our lives,
We were born and raised in a summer haze,
Bound by the surprise of our glory days,

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it,
I had hoped you'd see my face,
And that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over, 

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you, too,
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,

Nothing compares,
No worries or cares,
Regrets and mistakes, they're memories made,
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you,
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you, too,
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead
Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead.

I want this to be my wedding song. Or have something to do with my wedding.
My Grandpa used to always sing the chorus to me as a lullaby. It just reminds me
so much of my childhood. Not many people listen to The Beatles anymore but I
always do, their songs just make me feel good. I was really close with my grandpa
before he passed when I was like 7. I remember him so well yet so vividly. I just
remember always hanging out with him and giggling. He was such a great man,
he loved nature and the world. I love you papa Noel :)

Jealousy, we got to swallow it.
Your heart and mind baby follow it.
Smile, happiness you could model it.
And when you feel opposite
I just want you to know,
Your whole being is beautiful.
I’m going to do the best I can do.
Cause I’m the best when I’m with you.

Common

I want this outfit..

I hate when you try to fix things and it doesn't work so then you're just lost and confused and everyones true feelings come out and you find yourself crying every single night with ease. I hate feeling like someone has control over your every emotion but I guess that's what love does to you. I've been trying so hard, and I thought I had been proving myself a lot but I found out I haven't, so where do you go from here? I literally don't know, I think i'll just sit back and wait for whatever to happen. Everything happens for a reason but you influence that reason and i've tried my best to influence my future but I guess God or whoever has different intentions for me. things always fade into nothing, I don't expect anything good to come from this, I can HOPE but I don't expect. If I could sleep through all of this and wake up when it's over I would. but I just need to be strong throughout it all.

So much shit in my life needs to be figured out. But until then i'm going to focus everything on my future because I literally have no idea where it's headed. I need to just focus on it, figure out where i'm going and get there. Determination will be the key and if people want to come along for the ride then that's fine. But I can't have people messing up my focus. My emotions get in the way of too much. I need to be a stronger person and just quit being so emotional. I'm 20 years old now, i'm a woman, now I need to step up and act like one. I'm sick of the immature shit and everything messing up my days/nights. We'll see where everything goes, hopefully in a positive direction. I hate waiting for something that you know won't come back, or waiting for something that you know you'll never have again. I'm preparing for disappointment but  I can't let this bring me down again. I need to step up, grow up and have more than one priority in my life. I made one thing my biggest priority and didn't think about what would happen in the long run. Like when that priority is no longer there I have nothing else, because I never focused on or cared for anything else, so at the end of the day there's nothing/no one there. word of advice: don't lose contact with friends or stop caring about anything in your life just to focus on ONE thing/person, i'm not saying it's bad to give one thing all your attention, but when that thing is gone and you have nothing or no one left, that's when shit really starts to suck.