I feel like a jar full of butterflies was unleashed into my stomach and as they flap their wings I feel this feeling more and more. It's a feeling of excitement and happiness. A bittersweet everlasting feeling of joy. I hate life, but it's beautiful, but we live to die and die to know. Billions of people don't get to experience life at all, but we do. We get to feel emotions and breathe and love and live and learn and make mistakes and change and grow and adapt and do anything we want to. Sometimes I wonder if it would be better to just not exist. If life was hell and not existing was heaven. I guess now I realize that life is great, it's an opportunity to LIVE because when you do die you could just be nothing at all, nothing but bones buried underground. So why not take the opportunity and live life how you want to, don't dwell on the past but move forward to bigger and better things. Life is what YOU make it. No one can influence your life if you choose not to let them. If you want to do something then literally nothing can stop you because you only life once and you don't want to waste the one chance you get to live by having a miserable life. I guess while i'm happy I should stay this way, i'm sick of getting upset over nothing and making people upset because of my mistakes. Why not just be happy? I don't want to worry anymore. I stress too much about what people think about me and I try too hard not to give a fuck when in reality I care too much. I shouldn't though, I need to learn not to be crazy all the time, I need to just take things as they come and relax because if someone really loves you they would never hurt you. So what am I worried about? I don't even know. I confuse myself 99.9% of the time. I just want to be happy all the time and if someone else wants to feel different then they can, because it's their life. Just live your life like you want to.

This is my King. The only person in my life who can treat me like absolute shit and still be around. I know I will marry this man one day. 

He's such an amazing person.

He's so genuine and is the best friend I have ever had <3 

I love him to death and would do anything for him. I try and be the best girlfriend I can be but I am a psycho bitch sometimes. It's ok though because he knows this and he still stays with me through anything. I love that I can tell him anything I want, or be an idiot and he just laughs. I can be yelling at him one minute and then telling him I love him the next. We have a weird relationship...and I think it's because we both know we can't get rid of each other. We are both so close now that it's literally impossible to be without one another. Kind of sucks...I think I hate him. He's rude and yells at me and get's mad at me for no reason and makes me cry a lot.....but he's funny and sweet and my bestfriend and soulmate and he will be the father of my children. I can't wait to fully experience life with him. To travel the world...to have children....to get married...to do everything we possibly can. He promised me we would live until we are 100. No matter what we go through, our ups and downs or whatever...I still love him, and he still loves me. I'm sorry baby, for always being crazy, especially lately, but you know I love you more than anything in this world. I try and do as much as I can to keep you happy. your happiness means so much to me and making you laugh or smile makes me feel like i'm accomplishing something. So when I make you mad or upset I feel so bad. I know i'm not the best girlfriend and I know all the mistakes I have made but at the end of the day i'm still the girl you fell in love with...and you're still the man I fell in love with. We just make mistakes sometimes. You'll forever be my papa bear and i'll always be your mama bear. and you'll always be my daddy and i'll always be your baby girl and no matter what we will get through anything, because we were made for each other. You teach me so much about the world...I love talking to you about anything. I love you baby, you're my everything and so much more.

Forever and Always baby.

I told my daddy to be a monkey...

my theory..

I hate girls thats only mission in life is to try and get a guy that ALREADY has a girlfriend.
You think it's ok to do that but as soon as you have a man and a girl tries to take him from you that's a different story huh?
I would never try to "steal" a guy from his girlfriend. not only does it look desperate but you look like the biggest idiot trying to get involved when two people are perfectly happy and you're just on the outside trying to get in. I mean, it does kind of make me feel better that you think my boyfriend is amazing, which he is. it's good to know other people realize that too, but i actually have him, which is better.
Just letting all you hoes know that no matter how hard you try to get involved, when a guy is happy he won't want to be with you. go out and find a single guy that might actually fall for your stupidity and stay with you for a while until you've had enough. Yall need to wake up and stop acting a fool cause you're making girls look bad.
In conclusion, it's hilarious that you're trying, but it makes you just that much more ugly.
find your inner "woman" and grow up.

The way you talk to me makes my heart beat out of my chest. Your lips, your eyes, your smile…gets me everytime. The ways you keep me happy tends to always make my whole day. Your jokes, your singing, your cute face expressions, it’s just amazing. The little things you do make me fall for you even more. I can’t get enough of you..

I’m here to hold you down as long as you let me. Stay true to yourself. Keep it real & funny. :) I love everything about you. 

I’ll forever be your biggest fan baby. Keep smiling for me & I’ll be thinking about you. 

baby you summertime fine...

-brooklyn zu